Sheame On Me
Just a place where I let my brain leak out...
Sunday, January 19, 2003
Their concern can be so oppressive, it sucks the air out of the room sometimes.
~ If You Needed Me by Myrna
I may disagree with everything you say, but I will defend to the death, your right to say it.
~ Voltaire
People that Love you WILL hurt you, but you only cause yourself more pain when you hurt back... the only response to EVERY situation, good or bad, is Love.
~ Shea Adams
Let it all happen to you, beauty and dread.
I believe in Love. I believe in LOVING ME!
A garden beyond paradise
fog of joy
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I think I am sick. I am very literally paralyzed by my fears. What fears? What am I afraid of? Everything. Life... living, not living, Loving, no Loving, I am afraid of *all* of it. I am scared from the moment I wake up, all the way thru until, and IF I fall asleep. Sometimes, I won't even bother *getting* up. In fact, I spend most of the time I'm not working, sleeping - or not sleeping, wishing I was. It's not the sort of fear that makes you jumpy, I don't think there's a monster under my bed, or a murderer waiting at my door. I am scared of... well, I guess I am really scared of me. I don't know Who I Am. I'm frightened by what I can't do, what I can do, and what I have done. I am afraid that I am nothing that I think I am, will never be what I wish to be, and completely terrified that I, very possibly, have no idea what either one is! I have been given incredible talent, intellect, and kindness, yet I let myself stagnate in my little apartment and push life away from me. I don't know why I do this. I don't think I was always this way. What has happened, and how do I get out?
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it seems like
at times
I can still
feel you breathing
next to me
smell the sweetness
in your skin
incomplete 1/19
Sometimes we stumble across home without meaning to.
Home is a story.
No matter what, home is the ground upon which we walk.
Whether you have found home, or are looking, it is good to be thankful.
Knowing that all things are as they should be, give thanks.
If you want something you've never had, you've got to do something you've never done.
.: posted by Almost 20 Years Later 3:21 PM
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