Sheame On Me
Just a place where I let my brain leak out...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
3/18
I know that they are true
these things that I want to not
believe
the words I fail to tell myself
so I can go on clinging
only to discover, or remember
what I knew
these things I try so
hard to hide from
are truth that
lives in me
.: posted by Almost 20 Years Later 10:57 PM
3/18
how could i just
was this chance?
and watch you
walk away?
you promised you
would never leave
but I knew you
couldn't stay.
it seems to me
the more I cared
and held my breath
in vain
the more you pulled
inside yourself
and swallowed
all your pain
only in my fearless
dreams
where all my life
is played
do I continue
holding on
without feeling
ashamed
.: posted by Almost 20 Years Later 10:48 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
fucking crazy ass insane days of my life.....
3/14/2005
there is no fucking way
this can be happening.
and all i can think of
is talking to you.
i don't even know my heart
from my head, and i am
bleeding them both
beyond recognition.
everything is as crazy as
i never once imagined,
how did this ever begin,
and then as soon as
i was hopeful, end?
3/14/2005
i pushed too hard
i know that now
and you didn't even
push back
i hoped for an insight
into your soul
know that it was
like mine
i gave you the one thing
i can't give myself
while i watched you
hand it back to me
i never took it
but i still ran away
now will you run too
or will we both stand staring?
.: posted by Almost 20 Years Later 1:06 PM
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